i wrote this last fall. i was struggling with the people in the Bible being so familiar to me. like old pictures on a wall that i overlook because i’ve passed by them so many times. one day, as i read about this familiar face in John 8, this person actual took form in my mind, became a woman who actually lived, who had a story, who had been made new by the Savior.
since writing this, i have struggled with it. is it ok to expand on something found in Scripture, when i obviously am creating a big portion of her story? is it taking away from who Jesus was in her life, or does it somehow help me understand Him more? is it belittling her somehow since it may not be the truth of who she was? ever since i wrote this, many other familiar faces have taken shape in my mind. however, i haven’t been settled enough with this to write them out.
on the other hand, i’ve been praying 2 very specific things for awhile now…should i be writing? if so, what? these people’s stories continue to float to my mind. i’m still not sure what to do.
what are you thoughts on this? after reading her story, would you let me know what you think? not of my writing (i’m not even sure i’m quite done with her story), but how this type of expansion of words in Scripture affects you? i appreciate any thoughts you might have!
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She smoothed down her brown curls, pinched her cheeks to bring a bit of color, checked the rising dough and rushed out the door. They only had a small window of time. As she moved quickly down the dusty streets, she gazed around her…first at obstacles, then at faces. Were they ones she recognized? Did they know?
She reached the door of the stable behind his home. She tapped on the door as she slipped inside. Her eyes searched for him, but he wasn’t there. She glanced toward the corner…their corner.
True, she shared her bed with her husband, but there was something about this corner in this stable. Dust swirled in the air from the hay, the stench of manure wafted through the place, but it was of no matter. This was their corner. A place for only them.
As she knelt down in that corner to straighten the rough wool which lay atop a pile of hay, she heard his footsteps. Her heart leapt. She turned to watch him enter.
‘You’re here,” he sighed.
“Of course!” was her reply.
Not be there? This was the highlight of her week. He was the highlight of her life, wasn’t he? Not her children, not her husband. Him. Somehow he made her feel young again…excited…alive!
They weaved themselves in each other’s arms, and their yearning swept them away from reality.
“What was that?” she gasped.
They had both heard it. The shuffling of feet. The rumble of low voices. Their bodies stilled.
It was them…the scribes and the Pharisees. The holy men. The lawkeepers. They knew. They had come for him. She quickly dressed as fear pierced her heart.
Wait. They seemed to be talking to him somewhat casually. Did he know them? They called him by name, and they weren’t tying his wrists. What did this all mean?
A rough hand grabbed her arm. The voice of the old scribe was coarse.
“Come on. Let’s go.”
Her trembling fingers finished securing the rope around her waist. She looked up…sought the face she knew so well…her eyes imploring him to save her. He held her gaze for a moment and then turned his head.
They shoved her out of the stable and ostentatiously lead her down the dusty streets. Her mind was swirling. Where were they taking her? Why were they taking her? Why hadn’t they taken him, which was the custom? The faces all around…the knowing eyes. Her husband. Was he near? Perhaps he was walking home for lunch. Were they headed that way?
She knew the law. The punishment for adultery was death. She shuttered as she saw the rocks on the street. They were not smooth. The jagged edges would pierce her skin and break her bones. And ultimately…end her life.
They turned a corner. Couldn’t they just take her to the outskirts of the town? Why were they going into the temple where so many people were? Tears streamed down her face as the throng of people glared and cruel words tore at her ears and into her heart.
The multitude was encircling something. As they neared the center, she realized it was that man she heard about. The one who supposedly did impossible things. What was his name? Joseph? James? No…she just couldn’t remember.
The hands holding her arms thrust her directly in front of him. Her captors smirked.
“Teacher,” they spoke with such pompous authority. “This woman was caught in the act of adultery. The law of Moses says people of her sort should be stoned. What do you say?”
The teacher heard them. He was well aware that they were only using this terrified, adulterous woman to find fault in him in order to bring charges against him. But silence followed. No response. He didn’t look at them. He didn’t speak. In fact, all necks bent in confusion as they watched his finger reach down and touch the earth.
As tears stained her face, her eyes widened with alarm. What was he doing? Was he readying to grab this dirt to throw into her face? Or maybe that rock near his foot. Would he throw the first stone? What was he doing? Drawing on the ground? Writing something? She couldn’t quite tell. Why was he taking so long?
She just wanted it to be over. Whatever he said couldn’t negate the law. The heavy silence that filled the air was deafening to her.
He slowly rose. “Whichever one of you has no sin, you throw the first stone.” Stunned faces followed him as he knelt back down, finger again to the earth.
What did this mean? She didn’t understand. She was bewildered by the silence and the confusion of the past few minutes. Why were they waiting? What did he mean…the one who has no sin…the law said they all had sin.
She lifted her gaze away from this stranger just in time to see the back of the oldest man of the group…the one who had squeezed her arm so roughly. He was walking away. Through tear-glazed eyes she saw another turn to go. Then another. She stared…numb.
Soon she was alone…with him…this stranger who did unthinkable things.
“Woman,” he said gently. “Where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
“No one, sir,” she stammered.
“I do not condemn you either. Go now, and sin no more.” He spoke with such authority and yet with love.
She felt raw and exposed. Tears poured out of unknown places. Her eyes fixed on him. She couldn’t think, couldn’t feel, couldn’t move. And there she stayed for some time.
She finally turned to go. Who was this man? His words, so full of power and disruptive. His eyes fierce and tender. She stumbled back down the dust-filled streets, unaware of the eyes gaping at her on all sides. His words, “Go now…and sin no more.” Who could say such words? She didn’t even really understand what they meant.
There were so many things to sort through. Why was she walking back home? She should be dead. How would she explain this to her husband? Her children? Her friends? What about the corner in the stable? How could she live and not sin?
In the midst of the storm of questions, she somehow knew that because of this man, the one who had saved her life, she would never be the same.
She couldn’t be.